I am in love

I am in love wit my little baby I can't wait to meet him or her I feel like I can now relax I hope I have not had bleeding for 4 weeks and my baby is doing so well I was so scared until now but now I am soooooooooooooo excited it is not funny

what a first trimester

I have not updated in ages but it was a rough ride it has been. My first scan showed two sacs but no hearbeats (5 weeks 4 days ) I googled not good news and I had to wait 1 whole week for another scan so at the next scan we have hearbeats ( 6 weeks 4 days) yeah but there is 3 h/b holy crap we only had two embrio's transferred Dr arranges for me to see his partner in 3 weeks ( he was going on holiday) I don't like this Dr partner but don't have a choice as only week later one evening I start bleeding profusely I really thought it must be a miscarriage although heavy I had absolutely no pain I only go to the Dr the next days to see if need a DNC as the bleeding only lasted 40 minutes so laying there expecting a DNC i was very shocked when he told me my babies are intact be he can only see 2 h/beats WTF but I was so very releaved but a few days later another bleeding experience even more vicious and alot longer I go for a scan and yes you guessed it babies are still intact but all 3 are back.I am as sick as hell very very nauseas and very hungry and the heartburn feels like I am dying and the fatigue was out of this world. I see him once more the planned appointment just before Christmas to to check things out( 9 weeks 2 days ) all is still well babies measurements are not checked just heartbeats all 3 still going strong at this stage I start battling with the thoughts of having triplets and I just can't but nothing can be done until 12 weeks scan so I have to wait 3 weeks for the next scan. Come the 7th of January I was so nervous the symptoms was getting better I put it down to the first trimester being nearly over I was just glad to feel like a human being again. The Dr starts the scan i can still see 3 sacs but not much more and the the DR tells me I definately lost one of the twins at 9 weeks 3 days and the other one does not look good and after about 10 minutes of scanning he says we lost the second one as well at 10 weeks 2 days but the other baby that was seperated from the identical twins was doing very well and measured up to date was kicking and punching like crazy and looked perfect Thank God. Dr said that nature took it's course and this is the best outcome that we could have had and want to do the Down scan in 1 weeks time so here we are just gone over to my second trimester I feel sad for the babies I have lost but so relieved that I have one healthy bean left and I feel that I can now start to bond with this baby I have had no bleeding for 3 weeks so I hope I can now start relaxing and enjoying this pregnancy as it is my last I just hope that all the complications are over and that the est of the pregnancy will be normal !!