The worst day of my life (warning morbid post)

This morning at 3:20 I lost my precious little baby boy at 17 weeks and 3 days my heart is shattered I don't know how I am going to cope I had slight contractions from 23:00 which just got worse at least I went to the hospital at 02:35 I started bleeding heavily and my underwear was taken off and then started passing clots and minutes later my baby came out and I knew it was all over I lost my precious baby I should be glad that I had made it to the hospital in time because my placenta got stuck and I had to have an evacuation for the bleeding to stop. Words can't describe my feelings

He died during birth as his heart was beating still minutes before that I am shattered I wish that I had rather died giving birth to him than living with this grief. I wanted to see him and I am so glad I did but it will haunt me forever.